Ever since I have always been thin, thin as in super thin.. And it has always been my insecurity. Being thin made me feel ugly. Not only that shopping was always hard for me. I had to try different types and different brands of clothes just to find the right one, because some clothes we're always too big or too short for me. It didn't help that I was kinda tall.

Growing up, people would tell me a lot of things about my weight. When I was little, my friends would tease me about my weight. It wasn't funny then, and it still isn't now. I always get irritated when people ask me if I do eat. Sometimes I would answer them "well duh?", but I guess I couldn't blame them. Other people would tell me, "you should be a model, gosh you're so thin". I always wondered if it was really a compliment, or are they assuming that I am starving myself to death because I want to be a model. 

Of all the things that people would tell me about my weight, the one phrase that really hurt me most: "If only you'd gain a little weight, you'd be beautiful". Of course I would laugh it off, sometimes answer with a joke. But deep inside i'm hurt. Deep inside a sentence of a nobody, is tearing my self-esteem apart. I felt ugly. I felt weird, I felt wrong. As if being thin was my choice, 

I did not want to be this thin. I eat a lot and I eat some more. And I am still thin. I've been to the doctor, I've taken medicines, I've drank those weight gain stuff. And. I. Am. Still. Thin. I do want to gain a little weight but I just can't. The thing that actually annoys me is that people keep repeating on saying that I'm thin as if I do not realize it myself. HELLO? I know I am stick-thin, there is absolutely no need to remind me. There is enough mirror in this world to remind me that. So just stop. 

Stop shaming people because of their physical appearance. Beauty is not defined by kilos. Beauty is being you. And it goes both ways, to the fat people out there, to those who are trying to lose weight but still can't. CHEERS. YOU HAVE A FRIEND IN ME. Don't let anybody dictate to you what beauty is, and what beauty isn't. You are beautiful. period. no if's no but's. Don't let anybody tell you otherwise.